Patience Iago

Well, I found out from my Bishop today that my call's status says "Ready to be assigned." Unfortunately this means that it's not going to come this week! Hopefully it will come by next week, but who knows with Thanksgiving getting in the way. Who would have thought that I would ever have a reason to resent a holiday?! Just kidding. I don't resent. Maybe this is good for me to really become comfortable with the idea that I'm leaving on a mission.

It's only been 2 1/2 weeks since I broke up with Taylor, so perhaps a little more time before I get my call will help me be more emotionally ready. I can't even believe that. That's really crazy. It's been a very long, eventful, emotional 18 days. But I've learned a lot, and I have had experiences where I will just stop in the middle of something and realize how happy I am. Of course I've been super lonely, and some days are way worse than others. But I feel peace and contentment every now and again, and that is something I haven't felt in a long time, something I am always lacking when I am in a relationship. Which tells me that so far, none of my relationships were meant to work out for eternity. That's comforting. :)

Having to wait at least another 10 days kind of takes off the stress of it. If I'm not getting it this week, it almost makes it seem like I can be more patient than if it was coming this Wednesday. It will also give me the opportunity to go to the temple a few more times and maybe feel a little more at peace with who I am right now.

Today my choir (as in I'm the director) sang in church. They did a great job. I am slowly getting more and more comfortable directing the choir. It's only been about 10 months, no big deal ;) I also gave a lesson in Relief Society. I am definitely not a teacher because I'm good at it. That is for certain. I really struggle teaching for 40 minutes. I don't really know how to prepare lessons. I guess I'll learn that pretty fast on my mission, eh?

Today I wore an outfit I've never worn before. I can't decide how I feel about it. What do you think?

I've never been a huge fan of gold, but I'm getting more okay with it. The shirt and the belt are mom's and the necklace is Kathy's. And the skirt and shoes are mine.

I have 3 classes tomorrow and then that's it for the rest of the week. I'll probably work 7 hrs tomorrow, 8 hrs Tuesday, and 5 hrs Wednesday. Ha. If I can stand that much work in three days. My job is such a blessing. I get paid way more than I deserve, they're super flexible with my school schedule, and I work in an amazing environment, right on campus, with awesome people. But does it have to be so dang monotonous?! I was not meant to sit at a computer for 8 hrs straight. Not my cup of tea. But hey, it pays for my tuition, right? :)

Tonight we sang the Omar song "He is Born." I love singing with my family. It is one of the best things ever. I remember being home one evening and for some reason all of my brothers were there, one sister, and then me and my Dad. We were singing and I suddenly had the most secure, warm, content feeling wash over me. I felt so safe with so many worthy priesthood holders. It was awesome. Sadly Dad, Milla, and Anna didn't sing with us tonight. But I'm sure we'll sing it all together pretty soon :) Look on fb for a few of the priceless faces people make when they sing...

I hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. It's been a good one for me. I've learned a lot and been inspired. And happy Thanksgiving week :)