Shoot!

Another long, rambling post coming up! 
Today I went shooting again! And oh my goodness how I love it! :) I'm not sure why I like it so much, it is VERY tiring, I'm not a very good aim, and those shotguns have such a strong kick that I have a big bruise on my shoulder now. But I really enjoyed it. I've been shooting twice before I believe, but  this was the first time I shot clay pigeons. And I hit prob 6 or 7 of them in the air. I was so proud of myself :) I want to get a gun someday. I definitely believe in the second amendment, yes indeed. (I think it's funny how many nurses completely disagree with the right to bear arms). I am very impressed with boys who can shoot really well. And somehow it makes me feel safer knowing that there are boys who own guns, who have them here while they're at college. Yeah, that makes me happy.

Here are some opinions I realized that I had today:

~I really don't like when boys give me so many options on dates. No, that's not really it. When they give me the option of going home or staying to get food. And in doing so they make it seem like I'm secretly dying and want to go home sooo bad, but I can stay if I want. I never know how to respond! I usually don't get annoyed with long dates so that doesn't bother me. And even when I know it would be good for me to get home to do homework, I have a really hard time (esp after they make it sound like I'm hating the date) saying, "yeah, I should probably get home." I just need to learn how to respond and it will be fine. In relation to choices, I just need to learn to recognize what my opinion is.

~I think it is very audacious for someone to text me this question from a number I've never seen before: "Hey when did you want to go on that date?" Um, excuse you? I have no idea who you are, I'm not in the habit of going on dates with guys who ask me out via text, and asking it like that sure makes it really seem like you want to go, NOT! Don't make it seem like someone is forcing you to ask me out. Dude. And still, who the heck are you?


~I'm definitely one of those girls who love to be urged into telling or doing something. This is embarrassing, but I realized today that it's true. When a boy asks me a question, I delay answering at first, and then he's totally fine with that, I kind of get disappointed! Classic ditzy, attention-hungry blonde, right? I need to learn to be more straightforward. Just say what I want and answer questions how I want instead of waiting to be cajoled (yes! this is the perfect word for what I'm trying to say, I love when there are words like that! :) into giving information or accepting something. I think it's kind of a fun privilege you can take when you're a girl--I'm def going to give my husband hints and he's going to have to learn to read them, but I need to stop expecting that of all boys. That's just dumb.

~I really need to come up with some good answers to this oh-so-common question: "Bekah, tell me something I don't know about you." I can NEVER think of a good answer :( Meh.

~Along the same lines--I love when guys ask me lots of specific, easy-to-answer questions. It helps me talk with them so much better. And it shows that they are more interested in talking about me than they are about telling me about them. I like it, it makes conversations go much smoother on dates. :)

~I love cooking for boys who appreciate it. Like a lot a lot. I would even make them food and drop it off at their door secretly just because it would give me such great satisfaction knowing how much they appreciate it. When boys are better at cooking than me, and love to do it, I feel a little out of place. Isn't that my job? (Oh so sexist, I know). Part of me is very impressed, but part of me is disappointed that I can't impress them with my cooking.

*MOST IMPORTANT: I just want to be friends with guys! This whole apt is so fun to hang out with! Can't we just be buddy 'ol pals? I would really appreciate that a lot more than a dating relationship right now. Can I just come hang out with you guys? Please? And don't be offended if I'm not interested in you. Why are guys incapable of this?! It is the bane of my existence right about now.

Ok, I need to go to bed now, sleep tight!