A chapter closed.

August is a good month. Remember how last August I was supposed to get married? Well guess what? It's been a year. I love that it's been a year. Time makes things seem so much better. Last August was awful. But this August is so good. On Saturday, after an awesome family reunion, I cleaned out my room. In the midst of my cleaning I came across a box of stuff. This was a regular shoe box. But it was stuffed full. It was full of things Matt had given me. Notes, pictures, cards, letters, etc. I had kept them "just in case." But it was time that I got rid of that "just in case." So, with the moral support of my sisters and my dearest Mother, I emptied that box. It was harder than I thought it would be. But I did it (and we ate some year old sourpatch candy to boot :)

I didn't want to throw these notes in the garbage for someone to read. So I shredded them. The hard part was not pain. It was not loneliness. It was not heartache. The hard part was getting rid of something that had been made with such meaning and love. At first it felt so cruel to destroy something so lovingly created. But I realized, thanks to Mom, that it was better to get rid of it. It was better for both of us. And he would want that for me. I've moved on. That chapter of my life is closed. Those memories will forever remain, but I can now look back to them as a life experience that helped shape me into what I am today-hopefully a little closer to the woman God wants me to be. I am so happy right now! Life is so exciting. There are so many wonderful opportunities ahead of me.

Here is a sample:
Tomorrow I am going shooting. I am super excited :) I love shooting. And I really need to finally get a picture of me shooting. Wahoo!!

This Saturday morning (early early morning) I am going to hike Timp. Another goal will be checked off and new, awesome, beautiful, fun memories made.

This week I have two cousins getting married. How cool is that?

This week I am going to exercise like crazy. I love it.

And this week I'm going to do lots of weeding, reading, cleaning, praying, and studying. It's gonna be great!

p.s. Did I already mention on here the fabulous fact that I don't have to get my wisdom teeth out yet? haha not for 2 more years! Do you know what that means? It means my dentist paperwork is already done for my mission. All I have left is a picture to upload, my license and passport scans to upload, medical paperwork to get done, and 3 more interviews. Yayayayayay :)