Yes.

Sometimes I fb stalk people excessively. And I really mean excessively.

Sometimes I get jealous (but in a very "I'm so happy for you!" way) of my beautiful friend Laura and her extremely attractive bf KC and their adventures in Europe and how happy they are together! I want to feel in love like that. Or maybe I just want to travel Europe. Or have a hot bf? I don't know. All three are fabulous :)

Sometimes I don't know how I feel about boys. What else is new?

Sometimes I care too much about what other people think of boys that I like.

Sometimes I ignore little things that bother me about guys because I don't want to have to admit that I may not like them as much as I thought a few days ago. Or maybe because I want so badly to just really really like someone that I don't want to think about reasons I may not be quite as attracted to them? I don't really know. But I wish I could just be perfectly honest with myself, as well as boys I like.

And I finally told him that I started my mission papers. I just dropped it very casually in a conversation that didn't go at all how I expected it to. That was probably a blessing. I don't really know how I feel now.

And sometimes I stay up way too late.

Goodnight!