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I keep having these urges to write posts about certain things, but by the time I have time to write a blog post I always forget what I wanted to write about...

Today I had clinical. It was fantastic :) I worked in Same Day Surgery, a unit where people get admitted, go through surgery, and get discharged to home all in one day (granted that there are no complications). So, I got to see that whole process. I went with the patient through surgery, watched the surgery, went with them to PACU (Post Anesthesia Care Unit where we make sure they are coming out of sedation okay), and then went with them back to Same Day to recover until they have high enough oxygen saturation on room air to be sent home. It was so great! Because I got to watch surgery I was able to wear the green scrubs everyone wears with anything having to do with surgeries (or doctors). They have to have everything as clean as possible so we can't wear our own. When you wear green scrubs you mix in SO much better with the other techs, anesthesiologists, circulating nurses, and doctors because we're all wearing the same thing! And the attitude people have toward you is so different than when your scrubs immediately give away that you're just a student. It was great. I got to watch a super cool surgery where pieces of bone were sawed off and taken out. Anyway, that was rambling. Just know it was really cool :)

Oh, here's one of the things I wanted to write about: love tanks. I've been reading The 5 Love Languages and it is so good! I really, really like it. But I feel like there is something that he doesn't mention one bit that I think is so important. He talks a lot about how a person's "love tank" needs to be filled and how we fill our spouse's (I know, not super applicable to me) love tank by speaking their "love language": quality time, physical touch, words of affirmation, acts of service, or receiving gifts. I don't know what my primary love language is yet, I'm trying to figure that out still. But he doesn't talk about a person's need to love. I believe we have a great need to be loved, just like he says, but I think we also have an equally important need to love someone. Love is a very motivating force, an immense power, and when we feel like our love tank to be loved and our love tank to love are both full, we have experienced something beautiful. That is what can make life complete. Obviously that doesn't only come through a romantic relationship, but I think that can be where it helps us feel the most fulfilled (unless the love of a parent beats that, I don't know yet). Anyway,  that's all I want to write about that now, even though I have a lot more that I've thought about.

Oh, and guess what? I finally got the guts to refuse a date with a boy I didn't want to go out with. And to stop another boy from asking me out. I felt very rude in the moment, but afterwards I felt SO relieved. Yes!

And now I'm going to go to bed.

Goodnight :)