Argh.

I think one of the most frustrating things in writing is not being able to spell out sound effects. (Those lovely noises I sometimes make that make me sound like a wild animal). But argh is the best I can do for how I'm feeling right now...

Do you ever have those days when you don't want to do anything? When nothing is appealing to you, even your usual favorite things? When boys are dumb and complicate your life (even though you know that the night before and prob in a few hours they could very possibly be great again) and you just don't want to worry about ANY of them? I'm in one of those moods right now and I'm sooooo frustrated! It may or may not have to do with the fact that I've been a horrible person when it comes to communicating with boys and hence I've hurt some people without meaning to and I still don't know how to fix it. And I don't know what I want to fix. That's the hardest part. Who am I interesting in for reals? I don't feel interested in anyone right about now.

Here are some pet peeves of mine:
~When boys interrupt me and don't seem to care about what my opinions are because they are too concerned with stating theirs. Okay, I think I do this all the time, but it's so annoying! I'm working on getting over this habit.
~When I completely lose my senses late at night and do stupid things like talk until 2:30 in the morning when I have to wake up at 5 the next day.
~When I get that sick to my stomach feeling because I am so frustrated with not knowing what I want.
~When I get behind in school and know full darn well that it is completely my own fault :(
~When I'm so tired because I've not gone to bed before midnight once this week (it's been around 1:30 or 2:00 every night) but get up before 7:30 every morning. And am at school/work/campus allllll day. From 8 am to 1 am. Yuck.

Okay, I need to just grow up and deal with my idiotic mistakes. I'm going to get better at communication, and dating, and knowing what I want, and doing what I know I should do. You can never learn too much from experiences, right?