Worried.

This morning I woke up at about 5:30, extremely nervous and worried. I don't even know what was worrying me. I think I was stressed about not having done any homework all day Saturday. (My mind still hasn't grasped the fact that I'm not going to have homework for the next two months...). I had to remind myself that it was Sunday, that I didn't have church until 11, that I didn't need to prepare anything because we didn't even have choir practice that day and I was then able to fall asleep again.

But I got that stressed out, pit-in-my-stomach feeling again during Sunday School and Relief Society. I had such a hard time concentrating on the lesson. I just wanted to be done to go do something. What, I did not know...

That feeling finally left when I spent the two hours after Church cleaning the kitchen before my Mom got home from the family ward. It didn't come back until after dinner. But it's back again, and I HATE it! I don't know what I'm stressed about! I think I have had something to worry about for so long with school that my brain is confused at not having deadlines and commitments.

Maybe I'm so stressed about Mom that it's pervading my sleep. How can I help her?! What can I do to decrease her stress level? What can I research? Which doctor can she go see that could help her? I don't even know what to do anymore.

Another factor may be my swollen ankle. I have a Frisbee tournament this weekend (I'm not good at all, so it won't make any difference to the team if I go or not, but I really, really want to) and I don't know if I should play on it. I hiked the narrows on Friday and thought it was fine, but that night it swelled up bigger than it's ever been and Saturday it really hurt. My arch is what hurts, but my ankle is what is swollen. I don't know what to do about it. I'm so antsy to start training for the Freedom Run 10K that I signed up for and the half-marathon I want to do in the fall, but I'm so scared of seriously injuring a swollen joint or ligament or muscle (whichever it is that is messed up).

But I just need to take a chill pill. I need to read my scriptures and pray and remember that God is in control and I don't need to worry. Because all that is expected of me is that I try my best to do His will, and then He will make up the difference.

Okay. I'm going to go read now ;) Cheerio!