Self-reflection

I was reading a really interesting post by a friend of a friend (I wonder how many times I've benefited from being a blog stalker...) about introversion and extroversion. It has made me really think about what I am. There aren't people who are just simply one or the other, so I've tried to analyze where I fall on that spectrum. I took lots of quizzes for fun that asked things like:

1-Are you usually the life of the party?
2-Do you think before you speak?
3-Do you often send calls to voice mail?
4-Do you like to express things in writing?
5-Are you a hard person to get to know?
6-Do you have many good friends?
7-Are you a better listener or do you love to talk?

etc.

But I don't know how I feel about those questions. Some of them I honestly didn't know how to answer. I laughed at the 3rd one, since I do that all the time :) Number 5 was the hardest one for me to answer.

I love to talk. I really, honestly do. I could talk your ear off if you were at all interested in something I had to say. So I always feel like I talk too much. Partly because of that, I always feel like I'm too open with other people. I just express my thoughts too freely. I have always felt like people get to know me so fast that there isn't anything else interesting about me to find out. Boring!

But the last couple months I have had several people tell me that they feel like I never opened up to them. That they feel like they are the one that has to always keep conversation going. That I'm really hard to get to know.

And I honestly don't know how understand that. I don't know how I could be more open. I don't know how I could be easier to get to know. I didn't think I was closed or cold to other people at all. I thought I just spilled it all out way too fast and people got sick of me. Now I wonder if there isn't as much of my personality to get to know as people think. Who knows?

Number 7 didn't make sense to me either. I have been told by many people that I am a good listener. And I have people open up to me a lot. But on the other hand, like I said before, I love to talk...

I found this article very interesting. You should read it :)

In the aforementioned blog, there was also a post about color personalities. And so I started looking up that as well. I believe I am a very blue person. And sadly I match so many of the 'blue' flaws to a T. However, I've realized this about myself: I love to be thinking about things. I love to have a problem to work on or a concept to try to understand or a principle to ponder or a hypothesis to challenge and explore. I have found myself saying things like "I've been thinking about this tons lately" or "I keep thinking this" or "I need to go think about that some more" all the time.

Anyways, I still need to think about it more (haha, see?) but I think I need to get to know my personality better. Partly so I can be more comfortable with who I am but more so that I can become better, to learn new skills, to recognize my weaknesses.

Thoughts anyone? :)