6 days!!

Maybe....


If everything goes smoothly, I'll get my mission call in 6 days! Well, 5 and 1/2 probably. When I was thinking about when I would open it, I had my school schedule in mind, thinking I had class until 7. However. it's Thanksgiving break so I don't have class on Wednesday. I think I'll probably open it around 5:30 when Dad and I get home from work. I'm so excited!

I've been hearing of so many girls getting their calls. In this past week of call openings I have heard of Brazil (my cousin Lynette), West Indies (the other girl in my nursing semester going on a mission), the Philippines (a girl in my dance class), and two going to Sweden (just two random girls that I was talking to). I haven't heard of any girls getting called state side. A few weeks ago I would have said that I didn't have a preference between going foreign or going state side. As of now I don't have a strong preference, but I kind of want to go foreign. But I really do have a testimony that wherever I am called is where the Lord wants me to go. I just hope that I won't have any feelings of disappointment, no matter where I get called.

I still feel very unprepared. And sadly I haven't done much to fix that. I need to stop being lazy and start working hard to get ready.

Yesterday, while up in my room, I suddenly heard gasps and squeals of excitement. I ran downstairs to see a new puppy Dad had brought home. We finally have another dog :) He is a 3 month old Australian Shepherd. Dad named him Rusty :)




Last night, while shopping with Kathy, I got asked out on my first date since I broke up with Taylor. I probably would have said no, because I still don't really have any desire to date at all but I said yes because it is one of my friends from before high school who I know really well and who knows that I am getting my mission call this next week. And we're going to a vocal point concert :) It will be fun. However, I still feel loyal to Taylor. I would be so sad if he saw me on a date with someone else, just because he doesn't know the circumstances. I just hate the thought of him thinking that I've just jumped right back into dating like nothing even happened. But I know that it will be good for me to go on dates. I need to move on and stop focusing on the past.


You know when a little kid is throwing a tantrum or just crying inconsolably and then something suddenly surprises them and they stop crying, still kind of taking little gasping breaths while just sitting there stunned, not knowing what to think? Well I felt like that the other day. On Wednesday night I was having a rough night. I was missing Taylor so much. I went to the store with my Mom and on the way I was just crying to her and not feeling very excited about anything. We went in the grocery store, got what we needed, and then walked over to the register. And low and behold, there was Matt. I was such a shock. I haven't seen him in almost a year. We said hello and talked for a bit, but it was so very strange. I didn't even know what to feel. This was when I felt like that little kid. I think it was providential. For some strange reason I suddenly got rid of my really depressed mood and felt excited about a mission. My mind didn't know what emotion to feel so I reverted back to an excited one (later that night, after I stopped being in shock).


All in all, it was quite the eventful week. Oh, and guess what? I only have one more day of psych clinical on the unit. Wahoooo!!!